After a 24 hour Nourishment Retreat
Her true pleasure lies beyond rage…beyond sadness…beyond the things she can never change. It requires that she feel her anger, weep her tears, accept what was, what is, let go, and forgive it all.
This is a continuance of life work. Important, necessary, sometimes very difficult. May it be also joyful work.
Her true pleasure lies in the feel of the air on her skin, nourishing water to drink, to float in, solid ground to walk upon. It travels on paths through the trees, stands on a lake shore, looks down from dizzying heights. It requires a new kind of bread, fresh veggies, fruit and the newfound delight in food that nourishes and satisfies…it requires indulgence when the body, mind and spirit want to indulge, in dark chocolate and wine. It requires loving touch, a re-strengthening of the parts of her that have grown weak.
Revisit the core. Re-adjust daily priorities. Reclaim parts lost, but not forever-so.
Her true pleasure is not to have to work too hard at this, but work on slight adjustments and create the space to embrace and live these pleasures. These are small movements, really. More and more doable as the demands from others lessen and as she learns to listen to her yes, her no and to sweet words she whispers to herself: "You do not have to be in charge", "You can rest now", "I love you just the way you are."
Her true pleasure is in the exchange with other beings who seek pleasure and depth, the wisdom of their bodies and souls; these are allies for the journey who, in embracing the changes in themselves, whether intentionally or unintentionally, change the atmosphere around them.
I take her true pleasure with me, this weekend. I leave behind remnants of “can’t do that”…and enter another bend on my own spiral, seeing possibility, knowing something deep inside of me is capable of ever more generosity to myself and that this can only be good for me and for the people around me.
24 Hours on Kelley's Hill. Thanks to Kelly and Allison and all the circles of women in my life who find nourishment in words shared and conscious community.
BLR July 14, 2014